Essence of time.

So I've just started realising how crucial my time has become especially when you consider the fact that time is seriously on the move. I've never actually said this before but I always thought about it. There was a time when, if someone said "wait 15 minutes", it would mean a long time. Bloody hell, now it's like 30 minutes works at the speed of 5 minutes. I'm sure that doesn't make sense, but that is because you cannot define such a thing into words or a sentence, but in all honesty it does seem like everything is a lot faster than it was before. Maybe it has to do with the rapid growth of technology that's making the world move faster? seems likely to me.

Now taking into consideration my course and the time I spend with OTC (Officer Training Corps) at Sheffield University, I still feel like I have plenty of time to myself but I honestly don't know where it goes. My degree is getting more intense and there seem to be fears and rumours flying around as to our first semester results. It's got me pretty worked up and I'm really trying to get myself on track but the fact is, because I'm away with OTC every weekend, it never leaves me enough time to catch up with uni, and to be honest, there's not much to catch up too, it's just in my head I guess and I really just need to sort myself out. Therefore, I have decided that the coming weekend will be my last with the OTC (I will attend the Wed trainings however). I really want to score well, it would really hurt to find out I've got an average or below average result, with all the time that I had and the work that I did. It would just prove that my method of preparation was wrong. I really don't see the point in doing bad. The work at uni is pretty easy. The only time you realise that is when you haven't any time left and you think to yourself, what the fuck was I doing then? If you honestly just prepare while you have the time, it is actually so easy to ace a paper. 

Anyway, I really need to cut this short, I've got an early day tomorrow. Another day with a load of problems, finding different ways to tackle them, that's what makes you stronger I guess. I really like the look of my blog. Red & Black forever <3

love x xx x

Hello.

So, it's be a while since I last wrote one of these 'things' but it's the closest I can get to talking to myself or about myself, apart from literally talking to myself which I tend to do when I'm on my own. I must say, it is quite nice to narrate your life out in a blog. I have a lot to say but I'm afraid I spent the last hour talking to myself until I thought about writing blogs again. You tend to write stuff on here in your most happiest moments and contrastingly in your most upsetting moments or when someone or something hurts you. It's a shame this life really, yet we live in it. We fail to see the misery that surrounds us and that is why we are so ignorant to the world. There are times when you take a little break from your own little world and look outside and that is when the realisation occurs and rarely do we ever do anything about it. I try to, but I fail to do so. I still try to make a difference somehow.

I don't know what to say anymore, as for now. I think I shall call it a day. hope the misery goes away, far away.

p.s - Listen to trance, it can really move your heart...if you feel it.

love x xxx